THIS FEELING WONT GO AWAY

for the past two weeks my feeling has been bothering me. i hate this feeling because i never expected this to happen. i keep praying to God that he just please take away this feeling i have and just replace it with another feeling. i possibly cannot remove my sadness and confusion right now but i just pray that my life wouldnt be as hard as it is. im pretty happy because everything has been going great in my life then "boom" i started to feel this weird feelings. i told you to stay away but u didnt. i want to go away but i cant. so now what shoudl i do? i feel like im trapped and have no where else to go. i need you to get out of my life. i need you as a friend but not anything else. i want to beg but i have no guts to do so. i realize how special you are to me but not to the point that i feel so lonely when i think of you. if you ask for my heart you know il give it to you in a heart beat but hey, i know you wont take care of it and that thought just hurts so much. i want to be with you i want to love you i want to take care of you i want to spoil you i want to be there in everything that you do i want to be there when u laugh i want to be there when u smile i what to be YOURS. but in the end i know its not right. so please go...go fare away. far from me and far from my heart. just run...il miss your eyes that looks at me like im the one. il miss your voice that makes my tummy hurt, il miss your kwentos that makes me want to listen to you all day long il miss you!!! everything about you!!!! so for now all i can do is write about you but i cant take this feeling away...time for me to sleep...hope i wont see u un dreamland....peaceout